So long, old "friend"

She's always been there for me. I've known her for years. She's been there to comfort me whenever I was confused, lonely or messed up. She sat with me for hours and gave me guidance whenever I didn't know what to do next. She's been my "go-to" friend for so many years, an old faithful.

About two years ago I realized that our relationship was actually not healthy for me. In fact, I saw how harmful it was. It was a co-dependent relationship. Even though I "felt" like I was in control when I went to her with my problems, I realized that she was controlling me. She was giving me false guidance and keeping me from living a confident life in the spirit. I saw her for who she really was, her name is FEAR.

We'd been "friends" for so long that I felt more comfortable with her than I did with the TRUTH. She is also called Worry or Anxiety. When the Lord showed me how much control I had given her, He's been helping me restore my mind. It's been a minute by minute battle some days... Just choosing to believe the Truth of the gospel, rather than what I feel.

It's been hard to say good-bye to Fear, especially when life feels overwhelming. She's tried very hard to regain the ground God has redeemed and now controls. But I remind her that she is my "flesh" which has been crucified with Christ, and it is no longer my flesh who lives, but Christ who lives in me. An the life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loves me and died to give Himself up for me. So, I'm going with Him. Yeah, I may be yielding control to Him, but he brings life and freedom, while Fear brings only death!